The season is Autumn. The temperature has plummeted. The world is doing a fantastic job of falling apart. And I’ve just joined the ranks of the unemployed graduates. Watershed is a very soft sounding way of describing these turbulent times.
I’ve decided to stay in Bristol, primarily in order to enjoy myself, but also to continue exploring this city’s vivacious food scene. Radio 4’s food program agrees with me, the multitude of buzzing restaurants, cafes, food stalls and their diners agree with me, and luckily my parents agree with me that Bristol is the best place in the UK to learn about food. Its taken me at least a year to find the balls to write a food blog, despite much encouragement and a highly acclaimed Instagram account. You would think that having a degree in English would help, but it actually means that I’ve associated writing with stress, critique and pressure. I’ve told myself that this is the time to practice, so you’ll have to bear with me and allow my incoherent rambling.
Being a fresh graduate can either be the best thing ever if you’re living it large in South America, or it can be immensely stressful and unsettling due to a combination of things: paying rent, living with parents, starting a new job, not having a job, commuting, and change. One thing they don’t teach you at university is how to live in the adult world, and its fucking hard. It can be challenging to think positively whilst handing out CVs in the torrential rain, and then returning to a freezing cold house; totally broke with no prospects. Each day I attempt to organise every aspect of my life, but this often results in very little achievement. I’ve begun to slip back into the rhythm of student life: drinking excessively and beating myself up about it. Then again, since my exit from Rainbow Cafe I have had a chance to host many a dinner party and branch out with my home cooking…
In short, the first year of work after university is a serious struggle. Keeping your head above water in this competitive society, whilst worrying about how best to help rebalance inequality: and meanwhile having a negative impact every time you do anything from eating an avocado, to ordering stuff off amazon is incredibly demoralising.